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Writer's Block: Ten years to the day [25 Feb 2010|12:04am]
What do you expect to be doing ten years from today, and where do you hope to be living?

hopefully I will have been a CPA for just short of 9 years. I hope I'm happy and living in either Dallas or some other city I love.
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[05 Jun 2008|08:43pm]
Pour commencer, je suis en France. J'ai l'opportunité à étudier le langue pour cinq semaines. J'ai décidé que je veux écrire un journal qui decrira mes aventures en ce pays. J'espère que le journal me cause à m'améliorer.

Mes classes sont très difficiles, mais j'aime mes professeurs. Je dois écrire beaucoup de rédactions. C'est pas toujours amusant, mais je pense que je me améliore déjà. Quelques fois le professeur nous laisse à choisir un sujet pour une présentation orale. Ces fois sont mes présentations préférées. J'ai écrit de Fyodor Dostoevsky, de l'état du Maine, des stigmates, des arc-en-ciel, et des ananas.

Alex et moi voyagerons cet été à New York pour voir The Fiery Furnaces fait un concert dans le parque de la rivière d'est. Après ça, nous irons du Maine. Je suis très impatient parce qu'il y a beaucoup de choses que je veux a voir en Maine.

Malheureusement, j'ai beaucoup de devoirs pour demain. À demain, j'aurai deux interros et une présentation orale. J'espère que je ferai bien.
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It's been so long since I've updated this... [24 Mar 2007|08:58am]
I really do miss writing journal entries all the time. But I'm so busy now.

Yeah so....college is fun. I have a best friend that won't screw me over and this makes me glad. I'm also dating a really nice guy. He's so smart and has great taste in music and movies. Not to mention he's really cute. He's making me really happy.

I changed my vocal performance major to a minor, and that has made me so happy. I think my singing actually improved. You have no idea how stressful it was to be majoring in that especially since I HATE opera. So now, I'll be a CPA and actually have a job when I graduate! Swell!

I pledged a sorority, Gamma Phi Beta. I really like it.

Oh yeah! I've been seeing a lot of bands live lately....in the last month or so I've seen Of Montreal, Ben Kweller and Gomez, Lucinda Williams, and......THE SHINS! Yeah they were sooooooo unbelievably good live. Yeah.

I have my own radio show now, but I haven't gotten to do it in a while because the station has been down for a couple of weeks and then before that I went to concerts. BUT my show is normally on Monday nights at 9pm central time. You can listen online at kpni.smu.edu. It was really scary the first couple of times but I've loosened up a lot and I think it's really fun now.

Even though I'm getting really ready for the summer, I'm gonna miss Dallas. Grandview is SO boring compared to Dallas. And you have to drive so far away just to get anywhere there. But I really need a nice long break. Hopefully I can work a lot to try to build up some money in my account. Yeah that would be good. Since I'm not doing summer school this summer I want to work a lot to stay busy.

I'm on a big health kick now. It's good that I'm eating healthier, but I don't think I'll ever lose weight. I'm eating healthy and working out, but it just doesn't seem to be working. And I refuse to buy a swimsuit until I'm satisfied enough with my body to make it a fun experience. So I don't know when that will be happening. It's weird for me to have feelings like this because I've never felt this bad about my body. I think it's just hard going to SMU because there are all these really skinny blonde girls who look perfect all the time. And yeah I've gained a little weight, but I really shouldn't feel bad about my body. Not to mention that the guy I'm dating has a perfect body because he plays soccer. He's also 4 years older and sometimes I wonder why he wants to date me. He knows so much more than me and he's actually out in the world and such. I guess I shouldn't really question it too much, and just be happy that he wants to date me even though I'm not in shape and I don't like sushi and I don't know about a lot of the stuff he's interested in(business and finance). But I ate foie gras! I ate foie gras because he made it for me. And it was ok - the texture kinda freaked me out....and the fact that foie gras is duck liver might have freaked me out just a tad as well. I hope he never makes it again because I managed to eat it once but I don't know if I could again.

I got a shirt custom made - and YES you should be jealous.

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easy as 1-2-3 [20 Mar 2006|04:42pm]
A)- AREA CODE: 817

B)- BIRTHDAY: 7/16/88

C)- CURRENT CRUSH: don't have one

D)- FAVORITE DRINK: strawberry water!

E)- EATING CURRENTLY : hot cheetos

F)- FAVORITE FRUIT: strawberries


H)- CURRENT HATRED: damn! not really anything

I)- I AM THINKING ABOUT: being a hungry girl

J)- CURRENT JOB: church musician

K)- ANY KIDS: god no

L)- I LOVE: dylan and my mom

M)- FAVORITE MOVIE: ghost world

N)- YOUR NAME: courtenay



Q)- Y0UR FAV0RITE QUOTE: couldn't give you just one

R)- LAST ROAD TRIP: hmmm a long time ago


T)- FAVORITE TV SHOW: gilmore girls

U)- COLOR OF YOUR UNDERWEAR: red and stripy



X)- X-RAYS TAKEN: never?

Y-) YOUR SCREENNAME: grey_suedegloves

Z-) ZODIAC SIGN: cancer
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[03 Apr 2005|01:13pm]
So prom was yesterday. I had a lot more fun than I thought I would. Dylan decided to go at the last minute - he got his tux on friday and such. The set thing ended up looking really good. I feel kinda bad for not working on it very much...I left around 6.15 and they were up there until 12 or so. Anyway after I left, I met Dylan on this playground at this church and we swung on the swings and such and all that jazz. I probably would have stayed up at the school if I had known he would be coming to prom, but I didn't so I wanted to hang out with him then because I wouldn't get to the whole weekend.

and finally, the only thing that really matters,
prom picsCollapse )
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los angeles [07 Feb 2005|05:45pm]
I had a great time in LA. Everything was so wonderful, and went so well. The director was amazing. He was the best director I've ever had. He seemed to really understand us, and he wanted us to bond as a choir. It really worked. We all loved him, and at the end we loved each other. I don't ever remember crying at a choir thing. Ok actually I do. I cried at the Region choir auditions because I thought I hadn't made it again and I was just so shocked when they called me out for first chair I just grabbed Gavin and started crying. Anyway, I got off topic a bit there heh. He did all these things with us, like he turned off the lights and had us close our eyes and hold hands and sing together. And it really worked! The top row of our section actually held hands during one of the songs in the concert. I probably sound sappy to most of you, but it just feels so wonderful. To be able to share something you're passionate about with people who are just as passionate about it as you are.

And the little things were so wonderful too. Like on one of our breaks, some of us were standing around the piano, and someone started playing "Brick" by Ben Folds and we all gathered round the piano and started singing along. It was so surreal because we were from so many different places, but we were all remembering when and where we had first heard that song and why it was important enough to us to want to sing along. And when Susanne was talking about songs that had her name in it and I mentioned that Weezer had a song called Susanne and she knew what I was talking about.

And besides the great emotional experience I had with the choir, we sounded amazing. I can't wait to get the DVD and CD.

On the last day, Mr. Redding(the director) told us a story of a director he had had in college who had really affected him in a good way. This director had died ten years ago, but he wanted our concert to be for him so he put a picutre of his director in his tuxedo pocket. This made me want to sing so much better because Mr. Redding affected me the way his director affected him. At the end of the concert he would show us the picture and that just made me cry even more.

Then the next morning my mom and I were watching tbs and sobbing at stepmom and fried green tomatoes. So basically I've just been crying alot.
I hope you've all been well.
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when i am bored [23 Dec 2004|07:35pm]
i take pictures

only a few days left of 2004 by my badass guided by voices calendar
and the rest...Collapse )
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[20 Dec 2004|08:21pm]
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
get a speeding ticket, hit a car
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i seem to remember faintly that i made some, but i don't remember them so that's probably a no
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
i don't think so
4. Did anyone close to you die?
well i wasn't very close to him, but many people i knew were
5. What countries did you visit?
none, besides the one i'm in
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
a firm stomach - it will happen next year!
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
April 20th, April 23rd, June 20th, October 26th - these are personal reasons and some are too long to type out
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
showing alot of people who thought i couldn't act that i could - getting the part madeleine wanted in the musical because she is one of those people who think i can't act
9. What was your biggest failure?
hitting that car in the parking lot and leaving, kissing nick - even just that one time i wish i hadn't
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
got really sick a couple of times, burned myself with curling iron
11. What was the best thing you bought?
i really have no idea
14. Where did most of your money go?
music and subway
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
i get really excited about nearly everything
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
this world is full of crashing bores - morrissey
the bull in the heather - sonic youth
such great heights - the iron and wine version

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Older or wiser
hopefully both
Thinner or fatter? - I think about the same
Richer or poorer? - probably richer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
save money
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
analyze things
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
with mom, dad, and john...also my brother rodney and his wife tracy will be there
22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
maybe. actually it's probably more fell in lust
24. What was your favorite TV program?
as it's the only one i watch, The Bold and the Beautiful
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
most definitely. well i don't know that i really care enough about her anymore to actually hate her, but this time last year we were friends
26. What was the best book you read?
A Clockwork Orange, A Streetcar Named Desire, alot of Oscar Wilde's fairytales
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I suppose Sonic Youth, although I already had owned albums by them previously, I became in love with them this year
28. What did you want and get?
there are too many things to name
29. What did you want and not get?
to be in a band that worked out
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
i guess this means it has to be from 2004, so I would have to say Kill Bill. That came out in 2004 right?
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was 16, and I went with my mother because she needed to buy me stuff for my birthday since she hadn't. I also remembered that I ordered 2 eels albums from the cd store.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
No wrecks or speeding tickets
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
I made alot of my clothes this year and it's now gotten to the point where I feel uncomfortable if my shirt doesn't have something written on it.
34. What kept you sane?
music, i don't know what else possibly could.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
jude law and steve buscemi
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
the issue of gay marriage
37. Who did you miss?
tyler and chris....god i miss chris so much-he's great
38. Who was the best new person you met?
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
sometimes we don't do the things we want to do, because we don't want people to know we want to do them
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
'come down now,' but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave this all on your
Machine but the persistent beat it sounded
Thin upon listening
That frankly will not fly. you will hear
The shrillest highs and lowest lows with
The windows down when this is guiding you home
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[14 Dec 2004|07:16pm]
well the musical is finally over. i think it went really well and it is awfully nice to not have to have 9 hours of practice a week. i hope everyone's having a lovely week. i had quite an adventure yesterday - 2 wrecks within thirty minutes of each other! but alas, the truck is alright and will be fixed soon anyway.
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[11 Dec 2004|10:56pm]
Elitist Fuck.

Which Subculture Are You?
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Hail to the Thief
You're Hail to the Thief!
You have very strong opinions on issues such as war
and corrupt politicians, you talk in metaphors
and have a negative view on life.

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[30 Nov 2004|04:26pm]
Belle and Sebastian - If You're Feeling Sinister
You are Belle & Sebastians If Youre Feeling

What essential indie rock album are you?
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i love that album

anyway i'm supposed to be typing my paper. so i'm gonna get right on that.

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[27 Nov 2004|05:28am]
well i took pictures of my truck. unfortunately they all got fucked except one and you can't really see much of the truck.

i think i'm becoming obsessed with interpol. and i don't even have antics yet.

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[25 Oct 2004|06:32pm]
alright, no sense beating around the bush any longer,

this journal is friends only
comment to be added.
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so... [05 Aug 2004|08:38pm]
quincy carter was cut from the dallas cowboys because he failed his drug test and he was already on the substance abuse program. all i can say about it is, what a fucking waste. so many people would give anything for that opportunity and so few people ever come close to it much less get to be the fucking quarterback. damn. and he gave all that up just so he could get high. what a goddamn fucking waste. he could have played for a few years and retired and never have had to work again, but because he wanted to get high for a few hours, he lost that chance and let the entire team down. what a fucking waste. god. some people are so stupid.

i talked to mr pinkerton today and it went very well and i feel much better about pretty much everything now. i don't really feel like typing it though.
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[05 Aug 2004|02:26pm]

mona is the best and everyone should love her, especially since she is sixteen today!


you're top notch mona :)
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[26 Jul 2004|05:54pm]
i found a picture from my piano recital way back in may...it's really kind of creepy looking but i sorta like it. i wasn't even posing for the picture i didn't even know it was being taken.
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it's odd [26 Jul 2004|07:55am]
but at the moment, i feel a strange love for every human being on the planet.

maybe it's just too early.

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oh yeah i heard the new rilo kiley for the second time yesterday. i hate to say it, but i'm really not impressed. maybe i just need to hear it again.
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[15 Jul 2004|11:47am]
so i wasted a lot of time trying to change my layout but i suck at this stuff so it's really only mediocre, not even that to some of you probably but i wouldn't mind if you take a gander at it. stellaaaa! be ready heh

my aunt's funeral has been moved to monday so i won't be in houston at a funeral on my birthday. i get to meet the new choir director tomorrow...i think she's gonna be way better than mrs. staples so i'm excited.

i'm sooooooooooo happy the whole thing with michael is over. i saw him yesterday and he was friendly...but not too friendly!

i really want to see the village ... i've been in the mood for a scary movie but i've got to wait 2 more weeks.

i've got a bunch of crap i need to take pictures of...but i'm lazy.

i'm going to the good cd store tomorrow to get some cds....i went to the stupid one yesterday where i didn't get anything except smashing pumpkins bwbw single because it was pretty(and super cheap)

and dylan if you're reading this, you should log onto my journal...buddy!
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[13 Jul 2004|08:02am]
fuck you avril. i fucking wore a tutu before you did you stupid bitch......hahahahahahahah she's pretending she can play the piano...i think i'm over it now.

as you can see i have a new icon...and a new obsession. not with brando in general but brando in a streetcar named desire. if you haven't seen it, see it because it's very odd and there's this girl in it who's a real bitch but she has pyschological problems but the real reason to see it is because he's in it and goddamn he looks like sex in it. alright. coming soon: a streetcar named desire t-shirt

i don't really know what to say about how i feel about chris. i didn't know him very well but i did know him. i knew shay better than i knew him and she talked about him all the time and it was clear they were in love...and the kind of love they had was real. i just don't see why it has to happen to the selfless people who are good and are only doing good for other people. why doesn't it happen to people who care about nothing except themselves.

and also my aunt died and i think the funeral is going to be on the same day(which is friday).

i saw spiderman 2 this weekend. i thought it was really good except he needs to keep his mask on more...damn.
and spidey rules over batman!

if everyone would stop dying all would be well.
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so... [08 Jul 2004|09:35am]
it's been awhile and alot of stuff has happened. i don't really want to type it all out though because i'm lazy. my birthday is in 8 days wooooooooo. i got my sewing machine to work and so i've become a sewing fanatic lately. i've made alot of stuff but i was too lazy to take pictures of all of it yet. i took a picture of the belt because i happen to be wearing it...in a few days my brother will be gone for a couple of weeks! i can't wait. it's gonna be great. summer's going by too fast and i have stupid schoolwork to do during the summer. i didn't know this, but if you're valedictorian of your class you get one year of free tuition to any state school so i'm gonna be working very hard next year so i can stay ahead of blaine. my other brother is gonna be here in a few hours he's really cool and he's gonna stay for a couple of days. so this guy calls me all the time and he wants me to go see spiderman with him and i really don't like him that way and i don't really care to go see spiderman with him but i can't figure out a nice way to tell him...i mean i can figure out a nice way to tell him i just don't want to because i don't want him to hate me. i hate when people hate me unless they're stupid fucking bitches and then i don't care and i want them to hate me because i hate them. there's only one person i know of who really hates me and i hate her so i don't really care. i suppose if she completely changed and became not a stupid conniving self absorbed immature bitch i could be civil to her but i doubt that will happen. ok now i'm just rambling. i'm making a pretty skirt with my friend who lives down the road. there will be pictures when it is finished. it's navy and pink. new music FINALLY i was too lazy to pick new cds to listen to so i've been listening to wilco and the pixies for the last month with an occasional radiohead now and then.
anyway here is the new belt i made.
blue and polka dotCollapse )
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